Plus Sized Secret

I’ve been lying to myself for a very long time and now I think it’s time I have to be honest not only to myself but also to you, and my family.

I never considered myself overweight.

I am not overweight.

That is 10 years ago when I was still active in the modeling world. Charing.
That was my ideal weight of 95 lbs. Can you believe I was that light and thin before?
Ako rin hindi ako makapaniwala na ganun ako kapayat dati.

Fast forward to today.

I weighed myself yesterday and I was totally mortified, horrified, scared and appalled with what the weighing scale was saying.

I am 165 lbs.

That means my weight increased by almost 50%. Okay 42% lang talaga but don’t you think it’s shocking?
My gosh. Ano ba ang pinagkakakain ko the past 10 years? I seldom go to fastfood chains nga eh. Charing.

Anyway, to some of you who saw me recently, you might not think I’m fat but I really am. Talented lang talaga ako when it comes to dressing up to look thin.

Let me tell you a secret.

If you noticed in my recent photos you’ll see me wearing shorts that are cut above the knee and my shirts are always tucked.



Hindi yan dahil pinagmamalaki ko ang aking mga biyas but because may purpose akong mas importante para i-flaunt ang mga 'yan. I’m hiding my tummy by tucking the shirt loosely, and showing my legs so that the attention of people goes to what’s visually good to look at and will not notice my widening belly.

You’ll also notice my signature pose ‘di ba? It’s oftentimes chin up at medyo tilted ang ulo (na parang may stiff neck) or profile ang angle, kasi nga I’m developing a double chin already and if I pose with my head down, the double chin is very obvious magmumukhang catterpillar ang leeg ko. Eto pa, I always do a crossed leg pose because it makes you slim when photographed on the right angle.
Napansin niyo rin siguro that my right hand is always at my waist, kasi nga I’m covering my bilbil.
And what about that little smirk on my face and just smiling with the eyes to look mataray? May purpose din yan. Not only because I want to look fierce but because I’m holding my breath when the photo is being taken (alam niyo na kung bakit) and it’s hard to hold your breath when you smile.

There! I said it.

My secret is no longer a secret!
Alam niyo na na medyo healthy nga ako in person.

Kaya kung magkasalubong man tayo or magkita soon, hindi na kayo magtataka kung bakit I looked like I gained a little weight. Malusog talaga ako at marunong lang mag-pose na kunwari payat.

Hahaha!